8 posts tagged “work”
Hey guys.... I'm really sorry that I've fallen off the . uh.. voxosphere? I dunno what's going on. I want to blog, I need to vent, I need to write, but it's just not in me... I don't know what's going on. I technically have more 'free' time than I did when I was more actively blogging (just one full time job, as opposed to one full time job and a part time job or one full time job and school, and volunteering, and etc...). I'm starting to think I need to be busier! Cause, I'm just depressed this way :(
Anyways.. I try off and on to keep up with how everyone is doing, but in short, I just can't. Thus I will have to delete some people.
I truly hope everyone is doing well, and I will try to update more often... seriously.
<3
It seems I often have a post brewing in my head. Throughout my days I'm often thinking of the random things that are good/bad/happening in 'life' as I know it, and I find myself even thinking 'If I blogged about this, I could title it _____'. But I don't. So I end up with boring titles like 'sigh'. Because when it comes down to it, that's what I'm thinking/feeling. Just a sigh. Of boredom? Yes. Frustration? Yes. Defeat? Also yes.
I met some new people today. They were quite nice actually, and I don't usually get to say 'it was a pleasure meeting you' and mean it, but today I did. Until I got to thinking that I've discovered why I don't like meeting new people as much as I used to. I meet people who are often younger than me, but have accomplished more. I have nothing in common with them except I'm interested in the things they've done and want to do them too. I have nothing to speak of and be 'proud' of. I avoid answering questions in detail because it reminds me of the hope I USED to have. These other people (not just from today, but in general) have done things I want to do, and I don't know how they do it. And you know what, it DOES all come down to money. I would not hesitate to do everything I wanted to do if I had the money, or if someone else paid for it.
That's the other thing. I found that often people have accomplished these things with the aid of others. That's not to say I don't get help from other people. I do. But not the kind of help that will bring me back to school, or take me traveling, or get me married with a house and things like that. These things are all things I will have to make happen for myself, and I have no idea where to start. Do I think that's unfair? Sort of. Do I think that makes me feel like these things really won't happen at all because I have to rely on myself? Sort of...
If I want to do anything major in the next couple of years I will have to A) get rid of my car (which requires trying to find someone to take over the lease), B) keep the WORST HOURS I'VE EVER WORKED at my current job or C) try to find another job (again) which gets me as much money or more (doubtful), D) find another way to make more income because this photography job that I work in the mornings is shit (I'm lucky if I get $50 a month from them)... E) move to a cheaper and smaller place (that's in the works, more later).
Boy, those all sound FUN.
I'll leave it at that... My apologies for not updating often for the past month or so. I have excuses, but they mean nothing to others. Count yourselves lucky for not having as much of this complaining as you could have.
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“Many of the great achievements of the world were accomplished by tired and discouraged men who kept on working.”
my life at [crap hole workplace, where over the last 2 and a 1/2 years I've been driven into a pit of despaaaair] is over. I got a new job that I start TOMORROW! I can't believe it. It happened so quickly, even though I've been waiting for this for over a year, and have been applying for quite a few jobs.
Wednesday my friend calls me to say she knows of a place that's looking to hire (her sister in law works there so word was passed around). She says she thinks I'd be good for the job and should call them (she knows I wanted a new job.. she worked with me at the old place, so she's also looking for a new one! She wouldn't be able to afford the pay cut to work there though, hell, I can't really afford it, but I did it anyways). I call them. I have an interview later that afternoon. Thursday I go back to work at hell, after a 3 and a 1/2 week leave of absence, and spend the day training and catching up on things. I get a call while I'm there from the new place to meet 'the boss'. I take a 'longer' lunch (oops), and meet said boss. I get offered a job. I take it. LOL I submit my letter of resignation to hell, and buh bye! HAHA
Technically of course you're supposed to give 2 weeks notice, but I explained that I was to start my new position on Monday (which I am). So, my 'return' day, ended up being my last day. Very weird. I'm glad it worked out that way. Quick and painless instead of a drawn out goodbye, knowing it was looming in the background. I sent out a goodbye email to the floor (most people who've worked there over a year do so, to say goodbye), and got a lot of 'WHAT!? WTF! OMG' responses... haha Another one bites the dust.
Anyways, so yeah, I start a new job tomorrow!!! As if I'm SAYING that!! I'm kind of nervous, but not really. I'm 1/2 not looking forward to it (funny I say that... god if you people only knew, if I could only explain how/why I hated that other job so much...), because it's another customer service type of job, which is REALLY disappointing. However, it seems like it'll be much less stressful, which is actually exciting for me. The hours aren't that great, which is too bad, but they could definitely be worse, and there are some perks to the hours. They seem to treat their employees well, and people really enjoy working there. Plus, they seem really excited to have me on board, which is kind of inspiring. It's a job at a car dealership in the office/receptionist/service desk type of area. We'll see how it goes. I'll know more tomorrow. They were willing to pay me what I wanted (the low end of what I'd accept, and the high end of what they'd normally pay for the job.. lol). I found out so far that in June they take all the employees and their spouses/partners up north-ish for a camping trip. Cool!
Wish me luck. It's a strange feeling when a moment you've been 'waiting' for finally arrives. I'm worried it won't live up to my expectations.
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Seems like goodbye's such a hard thing to say...
So, I got a new job (...duh?). Sadly, it pays crap and is only part time, so I still have to go back to work at anxiety-causing HELL. It makes me sad. I like this job though, and would totally do it full time, but apparently that's not possible. sigh.
Anyways, it's as a photographer (independant/freelance real estate photographer, if you will... ooooo......) for www.viewit.ca. I just started yesterday, but the ones I photographed are already on the site!
Have a look:
http://www.viewit.ca/vwExpandView.aspx?ViT=51186
http://www.viewit.ca/vwExpandView.aspx?ViT=51187
http://www.viewit.ca/vwExpandView.aspx?ViT=51188
http://www.viewit.ca/vwExpandView.aspx?ViT=51189
http://www.viewit.ca/vwExpandView.aspx?ViT=51190
Kinda neat. I just take the photographs, and upload them to the server and people in the 'production department' do the rest. Let me know what you think of them. :)
I still need to find a new job, and a friend of mine reminded me (innocently enough, just in general conversation at least), that I still have to go back to work at hell next week and I almost cried. sigh. I don't know how I'll be when I'm actually sitting at my desk, 'ready' to take a call. I think I'll pretty much freak out.
That about sums it up.
Where to start. How about I didn't get that job. I was apparently choice #2 as I think I mentioned. They're only hiring one person right now, and who knows when/if they'll decide to hire another for certain. So #2 is still a loser.
So, now I'm deciding about what I want to do about the job I DO have, but am currently on leave of absence from. I have honestly never hated a job more in my life. I have no doubt its causing anxiety in my life and depression (in a mild, inconsistent form). I try not to think about having to go back because it just makes me crazy again.. heh.. and I want to cry (or DO cry, not just want to). I think I may shorten my work week to even 3 days or something. Four days is still too much for me. God that sounds pathetic. I'm NOT this type of person at all, so it drives me nuts that I'm even considering this honestly for my own sanity and well being. But if I do only 3 days, that way I at least still have a little bit of income or something which is better than absolutely nothing. I can't decide which would be more stressful. NO job and no income for bills and such, or a horrible job, but able to pay the bills. hah. I know it takes a long time to find a job anywhere, and around here is not that great. Being #2 is nice I guess, because I was a 'better' choice to them than a dozen other people, but as I said, that does me no good.
Sigh.
Anyways... as far as Spencer goes, I think things are going ok, but not having been in this situation before, and Chris having not been in this situation before makes it hard. Neither one of us knows what's 'normal' or what to expect really. I'm anxious to start puppy kindergarten so that we can ask someone some questions and 'compare' with other people's experiences to see how we stack up. I know that's not necessarily a good thing to do because every dog is different, but I think I just need someone to tell me that we're doing ok... heh Today's been much better than yesterday though.
(prepare for too much info about doggie bowel movements)
Spencer peed outside 5 times today, and not once in his crate, so that's awesome. He did manage to pee a couple times in the crate yesterday, but I think that was our fault. Bad timing and the crate area was too big. We also managed to get him outside in time today to do 'the 2nd movement' (not to be confused with a symphony) which made me so happy I wanted to cry. haha We apparently didn't time it well enough last night and he had a 2nd movement incident in the crate, which was gross. And stinky. Actually, he had more than one incident in the crate, but after we resized the crate w/ the divider panel and it seems to be better. It's confusing though. I don't know if we're giving him mixed signals or something, and sometimes when he goes it seems like it's at random times, not when I think he would actually need to (like right after eating/drinking/walking/etc). A couple times have been 'predictable' moments, but right now for example, he's circling around in his pen and whimpering a bit, which we've taken to be a signal he needs to go outside (hey, it worked so far today) but he just went outside twice in the past 40 minutes and both times were 'successful' ifyaknowwhatImean. So I can't see that he needs to go again.
Anyways, now that I'm done typing that he's calmed down and has laid down again. He's quiet, which is nice. He seems to be pretty good in his crate considering he's only had one night here. Mind you, he's been in an animal shelter his entire life so it's not like 'crates' are new. He naps in the crate and he only needs about a minute of coaxing before he goes in and stays in without whining when we close the door.
We took him for a few walks today. Chris went on a short one with him this morning, and we both went with him for two 30-40 min walks. He's not too bad on a leash. He seems to be a more passive walker, not a puller by any means. If anything we sometimes need to coax him to keep walking because he wants to stop and look around. heh The first couple of times he had to cross the street were kind of amusing because he wanted to stop in the middle. We've taken to making him stop and sit at the curb, then we get him to kinda job across the street and get a treat or 'good boy' pat on the head on the other side. It's amusing.
He 'met' one of the neighbour's dogs and had a sniffy hello. Someone who was across the street when we were walking him came over and gave him a treat. :) Some other lady stopped and petted him a bit too. We walked him to the pet store (about 10-15 min walk away, so 20-30 mins there and back), and the lady that worked there gave him a treat and petted him too. I'm glad he's meeting new people and doens't seem to mind them. He doesn't bark at any other dogs even if they're barking (at him or at squirrels.. haha). He's learning 'sit' pretty well too. As long as there aren't TOO many cars around, or too many things happening in the back yard area, he can usually get it with just a gentle nudge on his behind and 'sit'. Wouldn't we rock if we went to puppy kindergarten and already had him sitting like a pro? That would be lovely. Unlikely, but lovely.
The cat is doing as well as can be expected. She's acting better than when other people are here. lol They've been in the same room together, and she just kinda kept a safe distance and stared at him. He paid no attention to her really, which is also good. I'll let them do that for a couple days before I try to make her go closer to him at all. Right now she actually ventured downstairs on her own and walked to the edge of the kitchen (the crate is at the opposite end), which is pretty good.
SO... yeah... we're on our way into his 2nd night here, and I do think things are going ok, but it's stressful. I was really hoping I'd get that job so it would lessen my over all stress level a bit, but such is life.
I leave you with a pic I took (yes, while driving) of him behaving nicely (briefly) in the back seat during our drive home from the shelter. He was like that for about a 1/2 hr. I stopped once on the way home (it was an hour drive), but he didn't do anything. It was mostly country driving which he seemed fine with, but once we got into the city (which of course was only 10 mins from home... so close! argh), I think the stop/start motion of city driving threw him off because he got car sick. :( Oh well. We'll work on that. Tomorrow we're taking him to another pet store that requires a 10-15 min drive, so wish us luck. haha
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~ Rita Rudner
I think we finally have everything we need in anticipation of Spencer. It's alot of stuff. I'm broke. More so than before. At least most of it is things we won't need to buy again, or at least won't need to buy all at once again. It's been a long week. I'm patient, but not a fan of waiting. If that makes sense...
Tonight I have an exam for a stupid Outlook class I'm taking. It honestly feels like such a waste of time. I'm only taking it because it's part of a certificate I'm planning on getting through night classes. The class was only 3 weeks long (4 if you include tonight), but cost $90, plus a $35 text book! I didn't even really learn anything! I have to say I'm glad it wasn't any longer, because if I had to go back next week too, I might cry. Tonight's exam is open book, so I contemplated studying, but am sad to say I didn't bother. We have 3-4 hrs to do it, and I'm sure I'll be done in under 2, so I'm not worried. Even if I take my time I'll be surprised if I take 3 hrs. I'm not trying to sound overly sure of myself, I just don't usually take long in exams. I probably SHOULD take longer, but I'm just so anxious to get them over with. :\
I went to another technique class for Stampin' Up! last night. It was pretty neat. I learned a cool technique called Iris Folding. You should Google it. It's wicked. If I'm not too busy w/ poochy this weekend I'll try to take some pics of what I did. Today I ended up going to Michael's to get some supplies so I can do some more things at home, but GEEZ if everything wasn't so damn expensive. I passed on the stuff I REALLY wanted to get, and only bought a couple cheap, yet cute, stamps, and some different coloured card stock. I might make some more tonight if I get home early enough.
Anyways, dog stuff, exams, and stamping is about the most exciting thing to happen this week. OH, and a 2nd interview I had on Tuesday... hahah Can't believe I didn't update about that. Yeah... I had a 2nd interview finally for the place that I mentioned here. According to a friend I have that works there, it went ok, and I'm 2nd in the running out of 5 people that they called back. They're potentially hiring 2 or 3 people, so in theory that's good news for me because I should be one of them. However, I haven't heard anything official yet, and will be surprised if I hear at all before Monday. bah. Good news, is that Mr. Interviewer said that he'd hire me. lol Whatever that means. I'm holding my breath and hoping, but I can't get my hopes up too high. Right now the only way I'm blissfully happy-ish is by pretending I'll never have to go back to work at the call centre. tra la la...
In other news, with the sun shining, and the ability to finally drive with the windows down without a chill in the air, it appears that Spring has maaaybe FINALLY sprung. You're a little late there my friend.
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If the sight of the blue skies fills you with joy, if a blade of grass springing up in the fields has power to move you, if the simple things of nature have a message that you understand, rejoice, for your soul is alive...
~ Eleonora Duse
If you're getting annoyed with doggie info yet, let me know :P lol
So, I found out that Comet (pending name change) is on a food called Royal Canin. So I did some research on that food, and came up with this. Greeeeat.... So, me thinks we'll be switching his food asap. I hope they come in really smaaall bags so I'll have to feed him it for a couple weeks. Maybe half and half for most of it. I really just want a couple days worth, but I doubt they have trial bags. Wouldn't that be ideal? I dunno why they don't think of that. A week's worth of food so people can try it out.
Anyhoo... Chris and I narrowed down the name list (thanks to your help, though everyone had different opinions... haha). Spencer, Vash, and Reine are left (though he wants to spell it Rein, so it doesn't look like it should be pronounced like Rene). When I see Rein though, I think more like reindeer so that kinda bugs me... lol If we keep it Reine, that's actually the French word for Queen, so that would totally not work. haha So far I think Spencer is my favourite, but does it sound too much like Jasper (my nephew's name)? GAH. Naming my hamsters 'Speck' and 'Dusty' was SO easy, but this is ridiculous. lol
** Edit: Ok, it's official! We've decided! His name is Spencer. =D
So in OTHER news (wooo! something different!), as I briefly mentioned I took some time off work. A temporary leave of absence of about 3 and a 1/2 weeks. I'm hoping in the mean time I can get a couple leads on other jobs (thought I doubt it?), and clear my mind and be happy again for a while. I also of course have time to train the dog a bit and get him used to his new home. In the back of my mind I'm already freaking out about having to go back to work. Also the fact that I can't really afford not to work for a month, but it was either that or I quit entirely. At least this way I have something to go back to if all else fails. I know two other people on my team (team of 10 or so) who took a leave of absence in the last two months. Isn't that a good sign as to how lovely the job is?
And I hate to leave this until last, but I just heard about it, and have to mention it: Another School Shooting
Be aware the story is of course still developing, but either way.... very scary. I'd hate to feel scared to go to work or school afterwards. It also really bugs me that 80% of the time something like this happens the shooter also dies (though that's not officially confirmed). They should SUFFER.
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Show us how your work week begins.
On a funny note, I googled 'customer service crying' for some images, and it said 'Did you mean: customer service trying?'. hahaha no... no I meant crying.
In the end, I decided to go with one of my nephew at the grand age of maybe... an hour old. We have a common bond already.
